Coming Home

Each month, a Navy service member is eligible to earn 2.5 days of leave. After being in the Navy since August, he had received 10 days of leave when it came around to December and was able to come home to celebrate Christmas.

I had my concerns, I thought he would be different or perhaps seeing him for the first time in so long would cause an  awkward encounter between us. I worried that the feelings we had for eachother before he left would no longer be there now. I had also settled into a new routine since he left and the way I did things now were different than before he left. I grew accustomed to not being with him all the time.

Phew

Fortunately, I was able to settle into my old ways for the 10 days that he was home. Unfortunately, having to say goodbye again broke my heart and it’s like I had to recover all over again. It was similar to a case of “deja vu”.  I had remembered all these memories with him, but it had felt like they were getting recorded back to me in reverse. Not to say that I didn’t enjoy him being home, because I did. I just didn’t realize how painful it would be to let him go all over again.